Awful Feeling - Stressssss.........

It is a long time I donot have time to blog after Chinese New Year.

Now is early Sunday Morning, my kids and wife is still in the comfortable bed. But I am awake along after reading the news paper. I tought, I should blog again, to let you know, where what happens to me for the last few months.

To tell you the truth, I am still alive and survive on my works. The economic is bad, every day, Retrenchment news ran high in News Paper. Don't you worry on the trench ? Expert say, the situation will last for years. I do we expect the economic will get better while we still have not see the bottom of the problem yet!!

It is a long time I never have this feeling!!

I am not sure whether I made the right decision to join "The Project A". I am the 4th PM for this project. Financially, the project is bleeding like held interm of schedule and cost. I made the decision based on two things:

1. I thought it would be a good for me to learn from the trouble projects, how to hanlde the scopes, schedules, and financials.

2. My utilization is only 50%. I have 2 projects, 1 of then I can only clock 50% and the other one I cannot clock at all bit still needs to do all the administrative staffs.

3. Time is bad --- Survivor mode

The results:

1. I am exhausted!

2. I am stressed !!!!

3. I am demorolised!!!

If you think the stress is the result of the customers, you are dead wrong!!. The stress all come from the internal, My boss, My boss boss, the internal processess, and the supplier  that drives me crazy like nuts.

I am thinking of QUITING!! But I have a families of 5 including me need me to feed. I am stuggling in between. There is no other way and I have to tolerate all these nonsome but for how long more?? I can only praying hard that I can pull it through before I collapse!!

I can only hope and hope that the situation will get better!!